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We are back here now. LOL. I was inflicted with myspace insanity. Had to get out of there. So here we are back on good ole friendster. I am also kinda on livejournal and lastfm.

Daily rant.

I hate not having time for my friends. I have met so many great people in my life and I see almost none of them anymore. I do get together with Rob and Marcel farily regularly and James as well lately. But there are a ton of people I miss increadibly. The fucked up thing is there are so many ways of communicating now it is not even funny. It is so silent around here consideing all the friends I have. Then I get on this vibe about how no one is trying to communicate with me either. I chock it up to them being too busy and wonder if that is what they might be thinking about me as well. Hmmmm.

To all my friendster friends and more. I miss yall and I think about each and everyone of yall everyday. If I am in the area I might even drive past yalls house. Yall were not home. Busy I guess. LOL.

http://www.myspace.com/protooni 

I am just digging the myspace format more. I still visit both sites.

Wow I can post up to 50 pics now. Yea!!!!!

I will be posting on occasion in a live journal blog. When I do I will to it here.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/uruseioni/

Mwaaaahahahaha by the shear force of my mental power I was able to hold the snow away. Its true. We should have had 3-6 inches of snow today. But I said No, in my mind, and concentrated on no snow all day. It was really hard. I tired out a couple times and it snowed a little during those times but for the most part it worked. Whew. That was a close one. As a FEDEX driver you all must know I detest snow.

In other news my wife now has a live journal blog. Sweet.

Here is the link.

www.livejournal.com/users/morgail

wHAT THE TRUCK!!! wHY AM i SO NICE? sOMETIMES i THINK i MIGHT GET MORE RESPECT IF i WAS MEANER. yOU KNOW? i JUST HAD TOO MANY DAYS WHERE PEOPLE WERE asshole TO ME TO INFLICT THAT UPON ANYONE ELSE. wHY AM i THER FIRST TO ALWAY INITIATE CHAT?  wHAY DO PEOPLE ONLY TALK TO ME IF i TALK TO THEM!!! wtf. dO i HAVE TO ASK ALL THE QUESTIONS? iS ANYONE INTERESTED in me???? i WROTE ALL KINDS OF SPIFFY TESTIMONIALS TO MY "friends" ON THIS SITE. WHO RECIPROCATED? people who have never met me. tHAT IS SO AWESOME. i gUESS i HOPE THEY NEVER MEET ME OR THAT MIGHT BE THE LAST TIME THEY FEEL THE NEED TO TALK TO ME. i AM REAL WHWN i AM NICE btw. i JUST LOVE ALL PEOPLE. wHY NOT. tHAT IS WHAT MAKES PEOPLE unique. gRRRRR.

DOOM!!!!   

Doom says I the Doomsayer!!!!

What is the world coming too?  Watching the new this weekend it is easy to see we are still a lot closer to cave people than we are to Star Trek. We are 3 utilities away from the dark ages. Gas, Electric, and Water. We had a scare back there a few years ago when the power went out in the north east. Now the Gulf Coast has been practically destroyed. Including 90 percent of the domestic oil production. We are seriously looking at gasoline shortages in the future. I felt the pang of disaster that night when i had to wait behind another person to get to the pump. By the time I was done the Circle K by my house was a mob of cars waiting to gas up…It was a little bit scary and the sad thing is that was nothing compared to the 70’s gas shortage.  This time we may run dry.

Doom says I….DOOOOOOOM

So now we have a big mess down in the Gulf but we have a great opportunity as well. As we rebuild we have the chance to do it right. We have the hind site and the know how to build structures and infrastructures to withstand CAT 5 hurricanes. Sure I know they will still not be completely safe but we can do much better with this new fresh slate. That is what the areas hit is…A fresh slate. Will it happen like that. Probably not. Why? I have no idea. People especially people with the money can not see very well. They will rebuild to be sure but it will all be knocked down and flooded again the next time.

If the people with the money had any clue we not even be using gasoline at this time. There is no excuse why we are still dependent on this fuel source except for the fact the oil companies would go out of business if we did not use gas. So any new tech are discourage, delayed and suppressed. If a amateur guy can build a rocket that goes to space there has to be someone out there that can come up with a new engine that runs on a plentiful easy to produce fuel. Actually there are some promising ideas out there.

Biodiesil, cooking oil cars, and the lot. Biodiesil is my fave seeing as us Americans sure know how to grow corn and corn is the source of this amazing fuel. Just think of all the farmers that could the profits made from the sell of their corn as fuel source to raise their family’s. America could become great again as a nation of prosperity selling Biodiesil on the International market. WOW. Ok enough soup box ranting.

Hopefully we may learn from the lessons of Hurricane Katrina.

Memories…

It is funny what things you remember over the course of your life. I am a very nostalgic person. I love to think back on the "good ole days." Some people will think I dwell on the past too much. To them I say there is a lot to learn about oneself from the past to help you with the future. Beside a lot of my friends have been lost to the past and how else will I remember them if I don’t go back and dwell fondly of the "good ole days."

The "good ole days" are anytime in the past that I remember fondly or not so fondly I guess. That is alot of time considering it is any time but right now. 5 mins ago was the "good ole days" although I most likely will not call them that.

One thing I have noticed over the years is that the "good ole days" get better with time. It is all about the good vs. the bad here. The older the memories the less the bad things seem to matter and the better the good memories get.

I love/hate how memories can call strong emotions right back up to the surface like they just happened. For example the shame of letting a group of bullies spit on me while I was to afraid to defend myself to the warm fuzzies I get of remembering sharing a umbrella in the rain in Central Park on a perfect day.

Other good memories…learning to kiss that first summer of love returned…the BEST birthday party ever in Marcel’s  backyard…one cool November night on a farm with a new love interest…laying in the grass at Fisherman’s Park with Gail on one of our early dates…our wedding day of course.

One misconception of the "good ole days" is that they belittle the present. I disagree. The past can be a powerful tool to bond two people together. By sharing the past with those you love and trust you are creating wonderful bonds with them. I love to hear about Gail’s past memories they help me get to know her better than I would if she kept them to herself.

So what have you people? Share those happy, sad, painful memories with the ones you love. Do not let them slip away into oblivion. They are important for your personal and relationship growth.

The SIMS 2 taught me a thing or two about myself.

Here I am playing my brand new SIMS 2 game and wow look at all the new features. I can make SIMS that look just like Gail and me. I can give the Gail one the knowledge aspiration and myself the romance aspiration. Romance fits me to a tee. I am a real romantic at heart. So here we go. These 2 little SIMS that look just like Gail and I are running around the house and acting just like we do in real life. My SIM loves to run around half naked and cat calls Gail every chance he can. He has great goals like: kiss Gail, hug Gail, and Woohoo with Gail. Perfect. So a little ways into the game I call the Maid to come and clean the house. Everyone would love a maid, right. Well Mike sure does. Soon enough he is cat calling the maid. His goals become kiss the maid, hug the maid, and have affair with the maid!!! OMG!!! And this is the only way my SIM can seem to be truly happy. So every girl the Mike SIM meets he wants. Every girl the Mike SIM meets he flirts with. This is the funniest part. Every girl the Mike SIM meets swoons!!! Soon enough my goal is to kiss ten girls! WOW.

So then I realize this how I am sometimes. Especially back in high school. I was in love with all the girls I knew. I was always depressed because I wanted them all. Gail found a journal entry one time where I was regaling in the fact my friend Holly and her friend where sitting in my lap playfully kissing on me at the same time and I said "God I love Holly…and I love her friend too!!!" Gail laughed for quite a while on that one.

So is being a romantic a bad thing? It can be if you are not focused. When I lose my focus I find myself on the brink of getting in trouble. I am like a love addict. The more affection someone shows me the more "drunk" I get. Its kinda funny cause the more drunk I get the more amorous I become too. LOL. The sad thing is a girl says hi and smiles and I am like "Oh yeah baby!!!" For some reason like my SIM I have this idea all women love me. I hope that is not a psychological problem. I am sure it is.

Why I love Gail the most? She understand all this about me. I am so lucky to have met someone who knows me better than I do myself. She loves me even for all my weaknesses and quirks. People there is nothing better than to have that kind of understanding in life with the one closest to you.  So now I want to say thank you Gail. Thank you for understanding me and loving me anyways…XOXOX

Belief….

I cannot prove the existence or non existence of God. Religion is
beautiful but corruptible as an other system that involves humans. Is
there a Devil? Nah. Evil is purely a human thang. What could hell
possibly be? Whats the point of eternal damnation? Will the threat
really stop wrong doing? Although Heaven and Hell could be where all
the missing mass of the universe is hiding????

I believe in people, in myself, and in love. As for the rest…the
only thing I know for certain is that I know nothing. Most likely I
will be trying to figure out till I die. I am a work in progress.

Is there a soul…I have to say yes because Gail is my soul mate.
What the soul is, is another matter. I read recently that the nervous
system may have a deeper quantum structure…could the soul hide in
there? Where does the soul go when you die? I am of the "energy cannot
be created or destroyed" persuasion here. The soul endures.

Why do people feel the need to believe sooo hard. People are like "I
believe this and nothing else!" Whats up with that. That’s why people
blow each other up. Come on who can really say they are right…there
is no proof only faith. Faith is good but can lead to fanaticism. I
guess it is like everything else only good in moderation. I am so
middle of the road its like I believe in nothing. LOL…

What am I. Agnostic. gnostic. nihilist. poor speller? I think we all know the answer to this one?